Shuey’s Life

Things around here that have been really hectic lately.  Part of it has to do with the job situation while the rest of it has to do with bigger things.  It’s so hard to come out and say what happened mostly because I’m flat out embarrassed by what he did.

What matters is he did it, now he has to face the consequences.  He’s just lucky he can go to PTI instead of going through the whole court process.  It’s his one get out of jail free card, and now is the chance to use it.  The problem is he isn’t happy that he’s got this opportunity to avoid facing huge fines and jail time for his stupidity.  Instead he wants to whimper and whine about how horrible PTI is going to be, how he’ll be stuck doing community service… blah blah blah.

Grow the fuck up already!  What the hell is wrong with him?  He shouldn’t have done the thing in the first place.  We’ve got a baby on the way for crying out loud! On top of that he doesn’t have a job right now, so how the hell does he expect to pay all the fines?  We’ve struggling just to keep food on our table and our bills paid.

It’s like he doesn’t care.  He’s reverted into “poor me” mode, and he wants to whine about what he’s going to have to go through to everyone.  Seriously?  You’re getting 60-100 hours of community service and you have to go to PTI classes for the next 4 months?  Oh, but wait…you get to avoid a trial, avoid losing your license for 6 months, and you don’t end up with a record?  What the hell are you bitching about?

I just don’t get it.  On top of his whining about it, he’s making everybody else’s life a living hell over it, too.  If he has to “suffer” so do we.  There hasn’t been a day in the last 2 weeks that hasn’t resulted in at least one screaming fight.  He picks a fight over something stupid, throws a temper tantrum, then storms out.

Hello?  What happened to doctor’s orders?  I CAN’T GET THAT STRESSED OUT!!  He hears the doctor tell him to try to keep me calm, but then he goes and does this shit.

Fuck him.

I’m so sick of this.  I’ve had a lot racing through my mind lately, and I’ve been trying to figure out just what I’m going to do about the situation.  Honestly, I really don’t know what to do at this point.  I have to push on.  Never in 7 years of our relationship has he acted like this, and I have to keep telling myself it’s just a phase. Maybe he’s having some kind of first time father crisis at 27?

I don’t know what it is, but I know he’s going to have to get over it already.  If this “phase” doesn’t end soon I’m going to have to take the next step…something I don’t exactly want to do.